May 2004

Don't believe the hype. -- Posted by Balcony on Wednesday, May 26 2004

What the hell happened to Chuck D? He used to be angry and militant. He used to have things to say. Now he sold a song like 911 is a joke to Comedy Central to use to promote something like Reno 911? Now he's sitting on the Tough Crowd set (It's liberals day. Chuck D, Blonde Janeane Garofalo, Al Franken and...someone else) not saying a god damn thing. All my heroes are dead. Well, shows over and Chuck D never said a god damn thing. I don't mean he didn't say anything in the way the non Janeane chick didn't say anything. I mean he one sentence came out of his mouth. 'He volunteered to be on the leash?' That's it. Over. Done. Then they did the final act thing and his was the funniest of the four, but still he didn't participate on the show. Something about a positive black people reality show or something. Doesn't matter. All my heroes are still dead. Well...there's still Bruce Cambell.

I'm glad Kurt Cobain is dead. -- Posted by Balcony on Tuesday, May 25 2004

Fuck you. Hi Hak, fuck you too. I miss my god damn drugs. I never realize how much of a damn addict I am until I'm completley out of it. Took my last Saturday last night, BAM up since Sunday. Worked out excellent for my final today. I may have failed the class on that! I often wonder why I haven't killed myself yet. I should quit school and just go get that job I know is waiting for me at a bowling alley. I'll end up there after graduation anyway. Only I'll have more school debt to pay off. Aaaaaanyway, I really really like my drugs when I have them. The only problem with them is that they stopped me from playing City Of Heroes, what with the sleeping and shit. Got to play tonight though! I sucked! Massive debt racked up in under an hour! I'm half tempted to buy some drugs from email spam. A.m.b./\i.e..n.! $0.05 a pill! How sweet would that be. I'm even out of like...vicodin, which I hardly take. I wasted the last 6 or so pills on Friday because I didn't want to be aware it was my birthday all day. That didn't work of course because idiots kept mentioning it. I got this wicked awesome torrent from punktorrents.com. 15 CDs, downloaded overnight. Badtown Boys, Ben Weasel, Hanson Brothers, Leatherface, McRackins, None More Black, Osker, Over It, Riot Squad, Sloppy Seconds, Sommerset, Stratford Mercenaries, Strike Anywhere, Subhumans, and U.K. Subs. I hadn't heard of like...9 of the bands. Amazingly I don't regret a single second of the download. All 15 CDs are at least listenable in a 'drown out people and their ceaseless talking' way. Plus I'd wanted that Hanson Brothers CD forever. Canadian Punk about hockey? Does it get better? RockRockOn! Fucking hell. I'm going to watch Miracle. I should buy Bubba Ho Tep tomorrow I think.

An extra gold star on your fucking forehead. -- Posted by Balcony on Saturday, May 22 2004

So, Friday was my birthday and as per usual it sucked. I celebrated by eating a brown sugar poptart and watching Once Upon A Time In Mexico with the commentary on. Robert Rodriguez rocks. I got a new toy and the Invader Zim dvd. I'm paying for half the DJ myself but I guess it still counts as a gift, no? As full out self gifts I bought myself a few CD's. And yes that sentence was hard to put together with the right number of words. Also to celebrate someone decided to play SubUrbi@ on starz. That was most definitely the highlight. Rock Rock On!

Fucking hell I hate my life even more now. -- Posted by Balcony on Wednesday, May 12 2004

Man, I had a whole update written about drugs and how wonderful they are, but my browser ate it. Damn Opera and my own not paying attention! More Opera though. So instead of rewriting that wonderful piece of literature i'm going to watch the greatest Kids In The Hall Sketch ever (Gay Mail Order Slave! So great South Park ripped it off almost ten years later.) and play some more City Of Heroes. Screw you guys, I'm going...to Perez Park.

Reasons for suicide +1 -- Posted by Balcony on Sunday, May 9 2004

Yaaay I lose an entire drive a few days ago. Luckily for me it was my main drive! No...no wait...that's the worst part. Here's what happened: I'm going about my day, listening to some MP3s, watching some Bullshit! and playing a little City Of Heroes, ya know, the usual. Suddenly I'm reminded "Oh shit, I'm supposed to be making some Futurama DVDs (volume 2) for someone. I should get on that." and decide to reboot my machine (I usually reboot before burning, more habit than necessity). So I hit the restart on Windows and go looking for some food. Come back and see the dreaded BSoD. I don't remember exactly what it said (you'd think I would after seeing it a million times that day) but the main thing I remember was something about 'If this is the first time you've seen this error boot into safe mode and look for X to fix it'. Obviously not the exact words but who cares. So I do the ol' "hold down the power button" thing to kill the machine, then stare intently to catch the 5 second "hit F8 to boot into safe mode...NOW!" I caught it on the first try, thought my day was looking up. That'll learn me to be an optimist. So's I tell the machine to boot into safe mode and get ready to go bug hunting only to get...you guessed it...BLUE SCREEN. So now I a) can't get the machine to boot normal 2) can't get the machine to boot to safe III) can't slit my wrists with anything handy on the desk. What is a boy to do? Hop to another computer. I used the old win98 box in the dining room to get on google, windows.com and annoyances.org to hunt up my new favourite phrase DRIVER_IRQL_NOT_LESS_OR_EQUAL. There was one more piece of smaller information giving a closer location of my actual problem too, but I wrote some information for someone else on the same piece of paper I had that written on and gave it to someone after I had everything back up. Doesn't matter in the long run, the 'narrowing down' just gave me a few less pages that eventually boiled down to the same thing in the end. The errors pointed to everything from NIC drivers (suddenly going bad?) to RAM (tried it) and just plain "machine taking a shit-isis". After reading through about 30 solutions that didn't work I noticed one word that kept apperaing. One word I feared. One word I couldn't get away from. reformat. "Noooooooooooo" I said to myself as I realized that wa smy only recourse. "Sweet Evil Jesus, why me?" I lamented. "Why not someone who actually deserves it? Someone evil. Not Me. No not me!" So, I gave up in general. I read some, then I got my fat ass up and went to class. Came home that night, jumped into the BIOS, told it to read from the DVD drive, and redid the whole thing. Once again I'd forgotten to bring a sharp object so no suicide. Finally my C:\ drive works. I lost two days of DVD copy and ALL my shit for my class project. I'm still very slowly getting back to {square} one as far as my drive goes. I had a good chunk of software installs burned to a disc, and CoH was installed on my (former E, now) D drive. Luckily (for me at least) my nigga Vomit responded to an email in no time at all and got me back into the update page here so I can share my delightful tale and into the FTP so I didn't even miss a weeks stash update. The worst appears to be over now, though I do suddenly have some nasty spyware of some kind (i--search.com) that neither Spybot nor ad aware are killing. I still need to hunt up some apps (getting a virus scan back is a top priority), and about 1000 fonts (who backs up fonts anyway?). I also need to figure out how to get Opera looking the way I loved it in the beforetimes. Every day I'm reminded of new things I need to scrounge up or fix. It's a pain in the ass. Well, the ambien's kicking in and Eddie Murphy RAW is on Comedy Central (haven't seen it since it was new.) and I'm goin to bed.

Detroit Dead Things -- Posted by Balcony on Tuesday, May 4 2004

That oughta do it. Now the Avs will beat the Sharks and the Flame. Leafs will go over the Flyers then the Bolts. Then the Avs will beat the Leafs, get the cup, and I'll be happy because I'll be long since dead. I hate sports.